introspective periscope : peeking inside since Y2K

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occasional scream

should have coffee by now - 9 october, 2006

"i'm out here studying stones trying to learn to be less alive.~ani d.

i want to scream it somtimes.
i don't see your car in town these days. i avoid crossing paths with anyone from your camp, because, let's admit it, there are camps: your camp, my camp. i have nothing to say that would be good, so it's not really worth saying.
still, how am i supposed to purge all of this irritation with the very fact that all of you live...breathe...exist...condescend.

it's eating me up inside some days and yet, i bite my tongue for the most part. i keep the pranks and little gestures to myself and i don't even acknowledge that you exist anymore.

and eventually, once you are dead to my outside completely...once i have refused to speak your name for so long, i will be able to kill you inside, too.

because, let's face it: you aren't really even worth the anger, the thoughts, the frustration, the conversations. you were never worthy, if we're honest...

so why not pack up your things and head on down to virginia because i want my town back. i want to not see a shadow of your stupid van on the streets of my town.

every now and then, i have to say something, however quietly, just to keep it from turning to botulism inside me, bloating until i just burst...

relieve some pressure.
breathe again.

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