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the sugared coffee scram slam semi-frozen-chocolate cake reunion

no time like the present - eleventh of october, 2001

"and i dont think war is noble and i don't like to think that love is like war."~ani difranco

tonight, i had coffee with a comrade. tonight, i ate partially frozen chocolate cake with whipped creme (the latter, i did not prefer, nor ask for) and sipped over sugared coffee while he dined on scram slam.

tonight, i made amends and i feel good about it.

i mean, i thought about it all day long. well, i thought about it when i wasn't thinking about how much i'd liked to have pressed my fingertips around her throat and stressed the life out of her. perhaps, then, she might have stopped saying "yinz" and other western-pennsylvanian slurs on the english language hurt my ears so. god, she is so trashy....oi. but thats another story altogether.

but, essentially, i thought about it all day. i mean...what does one say to the person with whom they have shared an eight year (eight year? i lose track, its been so long...) friendship that has come to uncertain terms and poisoned words? you don't just greet each other with that same familiarity and pretend it never happened...not when its lasted weeks. you must address the issues, must you not?

but when i saw him at the front door, the butterflies landed and i remembered exactly why i had called him last night. i remembered exactly what was worth salvaging.

he is my friend. he is my best friend. there is nothing in the world--not politics, not patriotism, not boys, not anything--that will ever make me truly believe that we have nothing left to share...that i could be...done with him.

and so, i look forward to just as many years of shared laugher, drinking bouts, long late evenings spent talking, mindless drives, tasteless jokes, and everything that makes what we have....exactly what we have: friendship in its purest form; friendship that stands the test of time and everything put before it.

mark, you will always be my friend and i will love you no matter what.

you will always be my best friend.

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.what came before. - .what happened next.

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